Hurry up 2020!

Menopause sucks!

I’ll be so glad to see the back of 2019, in fact the last decade to be honest.

The menopause is ravaging my mind and body and it’s getting worse. I started on a new HRT in April after talking to my new GP. I won the lottery when they allocated me to her as she’s a women’s healthcare specialist and interested in the menopause and HRT as she’s early to mid 40s herself.

EDIT – I started writing the above on 30th December 2019 and that’s how far I got. It’s now 8th June 2021 and I haven’t felt the urge to write at all for the last 18 months for so many reasons as my mind has been so preoccupied.

There is far too much to explain but I will paraphrase.

Little brother’s death, pandemic, stress, menopause, lawyers, house move, self-employment, ageing family with poor health, hydrogen, YouTube outrage, alone but not lonely, and motorcycle escapism.

Thoughts and words constantly running through my head, but it always comes back to one. First born, second best. Made to think that I’m only good enough to shovel shit. Oh how little you know. Respect is a two-way thing. To get respect you must earn it. To earn it you must first give it. Money does not talk!

When I manage to see a way through this journey that feels like I’m running backwards through treacle, I’ll get back to you!

Bear with……